what would it take

if i take out all that's left of my soul
would people believe then that i only have a portion of myself?
if i peel off my skin from my head to my toes
would people see then that I only have bones?
to hold me in place?
if i empty my stomach
would everyone know what i eat?
that i gulp hollowness
swallow tasteless spices
chew blunt knives
and digest the dullest ingredients
would everyone smell my stink?
when i release the gas
that chokes my insides?
if i pull my heart from my ribcage
would it beat then?
at least 70 times per minute?
would i be free?
or would i have to face suffocation again?
while handcuffed?
if i pluck my eyes out brutally
would i cry?
would i scream?
would i bleed?
or i would finally have a reason to call myself blind?
if i fall down on a rocky ground
and have my knees bruise
would people ask how it felt?
or do i have to still tell them that it hurts
even if there is no visible hole?
if i cover my mouth
and stuff it with Virazole
would i finally be cured?
and be able to talk?
if i faint in front of entertained people,
enjoying a show that i directed,
would they think it is part of the scene
Or would they not notice
that my death is not acted upon?