to that someone i wouldn't doubt my feelings for

I disappear once in a while, 

travel somewhere far 

and bring my heart with me.

I put it inside a case,

locked and sealed.

I wouldn't miss people 

and not feel bad about it,

but i come back when my heart starts to contract 

in that small suffocating space

I come back once i'm satisfied

with my own company.

I know i drift away like some lone island

and deliberate about the color of my trees 

I run away when the waves bring me closer to a ship 

as i doubt about their intentions 

and the banners that they rise.

I fly high when the land starts to soften 

and flowers sprout among the ground.

I stay afloat on the clouds i built myself,

staring hopefully for you to exist.

I search for eyes that would meet mine.

Blues that won't lose to the seas,

maybe brown the color of the sand

that was kissed by the ocean. 

Black is nice as well,

for i believe it is purer than white.

I hope you show me your blacks,

all those purities you refuse for others to see.

I'll show you my whites

—with stains.

Those that they did not understand.

But for now,

I'll disappear until you appear.